17th July 2013

Assalamualaikum...

Yup! No one said this life is easy. Challenge come after challenges. It is not that easy to go through this life but anyway we can did our best to be just ourself through this year.

To me, today is a motivation day to me as I had been called by one of my favourite teacher and also our warden. You know, not every teacher love us. Not every teacher tell us the truth and some of the teachers just act in front of us pretending like they like us. My life, started in high school, my teachers are all does not like me. When I look back through my life, what have I do that make  my teachers hate and did not like me? Maybe I did not finished their work? Or maybe I am naughty boy? Or maybe the teachers wanted perfectionist?

My favourite teacher share some story heart by heart. Nearly cried when I heard his story last night.

Firstly, he told bout his life in highschool just like me. Hated by the teachers, the naughty boy, targetted student and bad boy. But one fine day that changed him totally when his father had been called by  his school right after he was caught fighting. He told me that, he was informed by his younger brother which their father nearly involved in an accident cause of worry bout his case in school. Then he was realized that when he did bad things, does not gave any positive affect to him but only make negative impact to him and his family.

Back to my story, he told me that if I did a survey on teachers in my school, definitely no one was backing me to stay in this school anymore. I had been in this situation when I'm Form 3 but during that time I did not felt anything wrong. But right after he told me this things, I felt like he is the only teacher which totally cared and love his student sincerely. I was shocked to hear that early but after the motivation, I went to my room and think bout what he said, it is true that I had been a distance away from my lane. My parents always care bout me, but had I even cared with what they said to me? Had I done what they told me to be done? Had I prove to them that I am not a bad son?

The first and hopely the last time I had made my parents cry bout me when I am involved in diciplinary case which fighting with my junior. I had been grounded for 8 weeks. The teachers started talk bad bout me. They started to hate ne and my favourite teacher. The teachers ask him why still want to keep me in this school? He is the one teacher which backing and support me. He accept me from my last school. My last teacher told him that I am a naughty boy, bad student and not good but he beleive that when I am in this school he can make something to me. Yeah!! His right! His style make me started to respect others eventhough they are small, soft and many more. He make me feel responsible on everything I did. He did not go with a bad style such as kick or punching the students but make us felt realized on what we did.

Seriously, I am so sad to know that every teacher did not want me stay in this school. Maybe I am not a good boy? Maybe I am not the best student? Maybe I had make them dissapointed with me?

But my favourite teacher begged me to change myself, prove to the other teacher that I am a good person, I am not a hopeless person.

Can you imagine in my situation now?

YOU FELT LIKE YOU HAVE NOBODY IN THIS SCHOOL.

How can I prove to the teachers that I am a good person?

You know, in my school the students are nearly perfect, good in academics, skills, sport and doings.

When I enter this school, my mind said that nobody knows me in this school so that I can did anything. But finally, my name was the famous name among the teacher. You know, if my name was a good model its fine but vice versa. Now I realized, bad doings does not give me any positive effect but even more negative effect. But when be a good guy, everyone will remember and respect you. I are on my way to change my life to proud my parents. I dont know whether I still have the chance to proud my teacher. But I will try my best and all out to prove to all of you in this world, I am the best person which oter can't found.